i want to look in the mirror and smile at my body, not feel sick. yes i am a size 10 and to me i feel like a giant next to my size 6 friends, i don’t want sympathy i know what i look like. seeing all my friends cuddling my their boyfriends kills me i don’t want to make myself sick or starve but i look at boys and think what if? i want to walk into a shop and not have to worry how big my legs will look, or my disgusting stomach. i want people to look at me and think ‘wow i wish she was mine’ how long will it be till i get a boyfriend? a first kiss? it makes me want to cry how much i hate my body, i hate it hate it hate it.

(Source: looking-past-the-imperfections)